are so much higher when deleting the post requires deleting a file from a git repo 😰

hopping into the group chat to tell the squad how non-attached I feel today

I timed badly the delivery of a new phone (my old one was from 2020 and had had its battery replaced twice… I need a bigger battery, apparently) and its accompanying case so I was carrying it around for the last 4 days with no case and it was kind of terrifying.

The new case has arrived and it’s a huge relief to know that I am at least somewhat protected from fucking up my phone now

it’s starting to feel like a website in here

honestly writing vanilla javascript to do things that still "feel good" feels like doing the saddest magic trick, but attracting the most hardcore audience. For my next trick, useful OpenGraph tags

and then it didn't again when I posted whatever that was. Third time's a charm?

there's this weird compulsion where the moment I think I'm making something that might be interesting, I want to polish it to a shine in a way that will make it possible for other people to use it. Despite the fact that it will require an intense and detail-oriented effort to go back and revisit almost every decision, definitely every cut corner, and figure out the "right" way to do it. the error cases to handle. the worries that if I let the software fail, it could hurt someone else.

It sucks! It sucks to feel that weight for absolutely no reason, despite the fact that what you are making is mid, that your knowledge is cobbled together from a bizarre bombardment of information that you've exposed yourself to over your career, both technical and political, that realistically no one cares and if someone does it's because they're already doing the same thing for themselves, or hopefully will someday.

I have to write things into the box and risk them getting posted to the internet in order to test if the software I wrote is working. That's a terrible idea. Automated tests, non-production environments, there are so many ways to make this not be a necessity. And even if not, I can still go delete the file from the repo if I want.

and when it posts to Github... we clear the form. hopefully

I'm posting to production again in order to test something locally. yes it's a nightmare